Broken

Remember the first time you got your heart broken? It hurts like hell right? It’s funny how someone who meant the world to you and promised you the whole world is now

a stranger. So there you are, alone and afraid to fall in love because you don’t want to feel broken again. It’s funny how the person you once loved is now the reason for your hatred. 
It’s true that you can never force someone to love you regardless if you are still committed. Everything is borrowed and temporary. Once they fall out of love, it would be so hard to get them to love you back again. 

Having said that, though we don’t own their hearts, I believe that we are all entitled for respect and we are all entitled for an honest goodbye. 

But what if we’re left hanging not knowing that we are waiting for nothing because no one’s coming back?

How hard is it to be honest and tell you that they don’t love you anymore and they just want to be free? No matter how painful the words are, we all deserve an explanation. 

What adds an insult to your injury is knowing that they were the one who stabbed you and then they act like they are the one who’s bleeding.

So there you are, feeling used, dumped and insecure asking what is wrong with you. 

The truth is, nothing is wrong with you. You just chose the wrong person. You just chose not to follow your intuition when you first met them and found their boo-boos. You ignored those things because you were blinded by your infatuation. 

There’s nothing wrong with you. There is something wrong with the people you choose to be with. 

What I have learned in my 26 years of existence is that you don’t have to welcome all the people that you meet in your life. You have to choose wisely and follow your instincts. Avoid people who mess with your head. Avoid people who keep on doing the things that upset you. Avoid people who want you to prioritize them but refuses to prioritize you. 

You might have been left out, but I call it destiny when you grow from a place where someone left you in.

The Cure for the Pain is in the Pain

Hello, it’s been a while. Today, I want to write about the cure for our pain. 

In order for our wound to be healed, we need to undergo the pain of the being pricked. We need to bear with the stinging pain of the ointments but we normally refuse. It’s because we know it will hurt us more. Even though we know that it is the only remedy for our pain.

Emotionally, we often love our wound more than thinking of loving ourselves. And don’t you think it’s funny how we find ourselves loving the person who hurt us more than we love ourselves? So, we end up bearing all the pain that we feel because of them, and we end up staying stuck in a situation that is so painful just because we don’t want to let them go.

However, as days go by, we get used to the pain that it already makes us numb. We thought it’s normal because we got used to it. So, we just let things be the way they are although we know that there’s something wrong. 

The truth is, we won’t realize how poorly someone is treating us until we meet someone who treats us the way we should be treated. That’s when we realize that we shouldn’t allow people to treat us poorly just because we love them. 

We tend to hold on to the pain just because we already got used to it. Taking the bitter pill or that stinging needle of injection for us to be cured may hurt a little more, b

ut would you rather choose a lifetime kind of pain or the temporary kind of pain? Would you rather suffer for the rest of your life or take the risk of feeling the unfamiliar kind of pain that leads you to your healing?

When You Have So Many Reasons To Hate


During my time off work, I have spent my days with my devotion and as I’ve heard the preaching earlier too about the power of Jesus and His love for us, it made me realize a lot of things. 

We have a lot of excuses in this world to feel negative. We have a lot of excuses when we don’t want to let go of those negative feelings and hold on to our anger and pain. Too many reasons like they deserve your anger because they have a very bad attitude, they are selfish, they have inflicted pain on you, they have a lot of boo-boo’s, etc. We hold on to our anger that everytime we see them or we think about them, we can’t stop ourselves from being angry. But everything we felt, Jesus felt it too. Betrayal, pain, suffering, shame, etc. What He felt was a lot harder than we have felt but He did not turn His back and thought about not dying on the cross for us. When I heard the message, I felt guilty and ashamed. Jesus has experienced all those sufferings and pains and He was willing to do it for me yet I live my life like I am living for myself and not for Him. Moreover, if I make my heart my own master, I may get lost because the heart is deceitful but the Lord Jesus Christ is always faithful. He is always there even at times that we feel so alone. 

Letting go of anger and resentment is more of being kind to yourself because you don’t want to be full of negative emotions that would disturb you greatly and would hinder you from being happy. Forgiveness and letting go is an act of being kind to yourself so that you can live peacefully. Never let someone affect you from being happy. A tiger doesn’t lose it’s sleep over the opinion of a sheep. It doesn’t matter what others would say, what matters is what Jesus will say. He had written your life story before you were born. He had promised to prosper you and give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11) Some may have meant evil for you but He meant everything that’s happening to you for your good. Trust His heart. Trust His purpose and trust His timing. Rejoice in the Lord always for everything that you are experiencing are part of His plan for your life. If Joseph wasn’t sold by his siblings, he won’t become the right hand of the king of Egypt. In the end, God’s purpose and plan will always prevail. 

Are You Competitive or Insecure?

There’s nothing wrong with being competitive. However, there is a thin line between being competitive and being envy or insecure. A competitive’s mindset is that they will do their best in whatever they do and they are going to focus on improving themselves. They acknowledge the things that they don’t  know yet and they are willing to be corrected because they know that they still have to grow and they don’t know everything.

 While the mindset of a person who is envy and insecure is far too different. They always look at how other people work and they’ll look for something to bash about them. They will try to look for their imperfections and will do their best to let them notice it so that the person would feel bad about themselves or they can make themselves look better than them. 

Are you competing with your old self or are you competing with someone else? Are you competitive or insecure? You know the answer.

When You’re In Pain

As cliche’ as it sounds, pain is inevitable and it is always a part of life. There are different reasons why we feel the pain. The truth is, no one is exempted to feel it. Regardless if you are a good person or you haven’t hurt someone else means you won’t get hurt too. 

The question is, “Which kind of pain are you choosing?” Is it the pain of holding on or letting go? The pain of dwelling in the past or moving on? Is it the pain that gets you stuck in your old self or the pain that makes you grow and become a better version of yourself? Are you using the pain to make yourself bitter or are you taking it as a challenge to make yourself better?

I know it’s never easy. Especially if it the wound is fresh and you feel like you don’t want to get up from bed because the pain is excruciating and you have no one to tell it to. You are emotionally gashed and you just can’t focus on everything. But even if you feel that no one cares, the truth is, God cares. He knows what you are going through and He is always ready to listen to your frustrations and heartaches. We just often put God in a box and we try to tell Him how to do it but God uses an orthodox method. It doesn’t always makes sense to us but in the end, the result is always beautiful. God always answers prayer not just in a way that you expect it to be.

Are you open to the method that God is going to do to heal you? 

Pain is always a part of life but if God is with us, nothing can destroy us. God can turn every pain, every trial and every persecutions in your life into something beautiful that you can nev

er imagine just trust Him and let Him do it His way.

When You Can’t Move On From Someone Who Hurt You

Do you really want to go back to the person who has hurt you and left you? Do you really want to stay in a relationship that is making you feel unworthy? 

Sometimes, we are blinded by the overwhelming feeling that we have for someone that makes us overlook our current reality. We tend to create a character of the person we love in our mind even though we know that they are not really like that.

I was supposed have this article entitled, “When You Can’t Move On” But I have added the lines -From Someone Who Hurt You. The reason why is because there are two reasons why people can’t move on. First, it is because the person has been deeply hurt. And the second is because the person has hurt someone so much and they can’t find a way to remove the guilt out of their heart. Both are actually hard, but it is harder to move on when you are the one who is carrying the guilt. You might have been hurt in the past but staying stuck on it won’t heal you. You can’t expect your wounds to heal if you are not willing to have it mended. You can’t expect your wounds to heal if you are expecting that it can be fixed by the person who hurt you. 

Physically, if we get hurt from something, we turn away and we try not to get close to that thing again. This is how we should respond emotionally too. But this is really hard and I am not an exemption. I know how hard it is. But as a life’s lesson, we’ll keep on experiencing the same thing over and over again until we learn from it. Moving on is not really easy but if you have been crying for so many times more than being happy, then you have to ask yourself, do you want to be stuck in the past or the present moment when the only possibility is that you will get hurt and cry? Or do you want to move on and let go of your pain and welcome the hundred possibilities in life? 

There is no guarantee that if you move on and let go, you will never get hurt again. But there is a guarantee that if you move on, there will be a hundred possibilities of being happy and free. You may gey hurt for one more time, but at least you have already taken the first step in moving on, you can stand up, move forward and keep on going with the hundred possibilities.