God’s Message and Healing

I’ve been stressed these past days caused by some personal and office issues. Personally, some of my relatives have misjudged me because of stories that are not credible coming from an unreliable person. This kind of experience had made me cry. It made me cry not just because I was hurt. I cried because I don’t have any other outlet to let my anger out. I was angry for the fact that my side wasn’t heard. I was angry for the fact that I am being judged by the people I love. I was angry, I was hurting and some issues at work had added more injury to it which was really piquing. 

Yesterday, I knelt down to God and prayed. I cried it all out to Him. And how mighty and wonderful He is because He didn’t just give an answer to my prayer but He has also healed me.

That was when I realized and understood why sometimes you have to get hurt emotionally so that next time, you would know how to be tough. Sometimes, the people you love would hurt you for you to know that they are not perfect and no one has it 100%. We are all a work in progress and God isn’t finished with us yet. 

I have learned that cutting people out of my life is never a solution because it will break me more. I have learned more about my imperfections and that God is working on it and inspite of all my shortcomings, His love and strength is so perfect which is more than enough for me. 

I thank God when I was treated unfairly, because I have come to know the value of justice. I thank Him for suffering betrayal because it has taught me the importance of loyalty. I thank Him for being lonely from time to time because it keeps me from taking my friends for granted.

I thank Him for the  bad luck, because it made me conscious of the role of chance in life and I have understood that my success is not completely deserved and that the failure of others is not completely deserved either.

I thank Him for the pain because it made me compassionate. 

 And whether I benefit from them or not will depend upon my ability to see the message in my misfortunes.

Who I Used To Be

I used to question God’s love and presence in my life. I used to believe that if you are kind, people will abuse you. I used to carry heartache, pain and hatred in my heart. I used to believe that vengeance will be able to make me feel better. But the truth is, it will destroy me more. It will add an insult to my injury and will fuel the fire.
I was lost and weary but God has found me and He loved me in my most unlovable state. He made me realize that I am not a label, I am not my job, I am not my status. I am pure creative energy. I am a miracle. I am enough. The state of joy, bliss and happiness is our true state, our natural state. Hate, pain and suffering are caused by our own thinking and by the society’s norm as to what a person should be or what a perfect life looks like.

“Why me?”
A victim will use this line of thinking to justify their beliefs in thinking that the world is against them. The world is against nobody. It is you against you. I believe I experienced some challenges in life because I needed to. That in fact, the things I once considered to be the worst things that have ever happened to me are now actually my biggest gifts. These lessons are what have shaped me today. It is because of these events that I can listen to people and say I understand you, I feel you, I know because I actually do.

“When will the pain end?”

The pain will only end when you decide to change your thinking. Its a choice we all have. You are telling the story of your life, you have the power to tell a different one. You choose everyday how you interpret other’s actions, how you interpret events and how you interpret the world around you. God has written your story even before you were born. No one can dictate who you should be because He knows you better than anyone else.

If there is someone right now sitting there with pain in their heart, with suffering in their mind and doesn’t know when it will end. I’m here to tell you, pain doesn’t last forever. No matter how bad it gets or it has been, it can change around. Right here, right now.

Do you know how I know? because I was you.

We Have Our Own Journey

Hello, I’m back. I’ve been writing through my facebook wall these past few days because I wasn’t able to access my wordpress account recently. Today, I want to express my thoughts about our individual journey.

We are all a product of our experiences and I believe that we are all a work in progress. Things that happened in the past was meant to happen to shape us and to be the person that we are today.
The sad thing about it is that, most of the people who tend to judge you are the people close to you. There will always be a lot of people who would keep on reminding you about your past and would try to convince you that you are not worthy. But the thing is, they are judging a person that they no longer know.

It seems so sad to think and realize that the people who you thought would always be there for you and won’t let you down are the ones who would. The people who you thought are the one who would love and accept your imperfections aren’t the one. The people who are supposed to know you better and what you have been through don’t have a single idea about it.

It seems so sad when people talk about religion but they promote judgment and persecution instead of love and kindness. But you can never judge someone just because the person isn’t like you. And we can never judge someone because we don’t know their own pain and renunciation. It’s one thing to know that you are on the right path and it’s another thing to think that yours is the only path.

I am not a perfect person, I have made a lot of mistakes and I have hurt some people and even the people I dearly love. But when I think about humanity, how many times do we often see the goodness in someone more than the bad? How many times do we often think about being better than who we were before more than being better than other people?

 

Life is a journey, no one is ahead of you or behind you. No one can tell you who you should be or what you should be. Nobody can dictate the path that you should take because only God knows where you are supposed to be.

Love and Closure

Sometimes closure arrives years later. Long after you stopped searching for it. You’re just sitting there, laughing this laugh that is unapologetically yours. As it trails off, the corners of your mouth hugs your face and it hits you, “I’m happy”. It’s just like that. With no fanfare or epiphany. Suddenly you are grateful for goodbyes that carried you to this moment; to the space you are now holding.

Though I understand why we get stuck sometimes. Hearts are stubborn. They sink their hooks into bad habits that look like people and dreams. But look at how much we give of ourselves. Our most precious gifts handed over to another who may, or may not value them as much as we do. Have you ever heard someone fall asleep? Or watched someone break down? There’s so few people in this world that you can share breakfast at midnight with, or that can completely forgive you. The people that get you to believe it’s actually all worth it, and don’t flinch when you look them in the eyes, never waver, and make a bed more comfortable. So when you find them, you, in a way, find yourself. And when you lose them, you, in a way, lose yourself. But know this: you will always be too much for anyone not enough. Somewhere out there is someone who’ll bring pieces of you home. And you’ll realize that losing everything is the only way to figure out what’s worth finding.

Because love isn’t easy and problem free. Everyone has a difficult past and scars in their heart. Just like how love is as beautiful as the sunrise, it is also as painful as the sunset.

Broken

Remember the first time you got your heart broken? It hurts like hell right? It’s funny how someone who meant the world to you and promised you the whole world is now

a stranger. So there you are, alone and afraid to fall in love because you don’t want to feel broken again. It’s funny how the person you once loved is now the reason for your hatred. 
It’s true that you can never force someone to love you regardless if you are still committed. Everything is borrowed and temporary. Once they fall out of love, it would be so hard to get them to love you back again. 

Having said that, though we don’t own their hearts, I believe that we are all entitled for respect and we are all entitled for an honest goodbye. 

But what if we’re left hanging not knowing that we are waiting for nothing because no one’s coming back?

How hard is it to be honest and tell you that they don’t love you anymore and they just want to be free? No matter how painful the words are, we all deserve an explanation. 

What adds an insult to your injury is knowing that they were the one who stabbed you and then they act like they are the one who’s bleeding.

So there you are, feeling used, dumped and insecure asking what is wrong with you. 

The truth is, nothing is wrong with you. You just chose the wrong person. You just chose not to follow your intuition when you first met them and found their boo-boos. You ignored those things because you were blinded by your infatuation. 

There’s nothing wrong with you. There is something wrong with the people you choose to be with. 

What I have learned in my 26 years of existence is that you don’t have to welcome all the people that you meet in your life. You have to choose wisely and follow your instincts. Avoid people who mess with your head. Avoid people who keep on doing the things that upset you. Avoid people who want you to prioritize them but refuses to prioritize you. 

You might have been left out, but I call it destiny when you grow from a place where someone left you in.

The Cure for the Pain is in the Pain

Hello, it’s been a while. Today, I want to write about the cure for our pain. 

In order for our wound to be healed, we need to undergo the pain of the being pricked. We need to bear with the stinging pain of the ointments but we normally refuse. It’s because we know it will hurt us more. Even though we know that it is the only remedy for our pain.

Emotionally, we often love our wound more than thinking of loving ourselves. And don’t you think it’s funny how we find ourselves loving the person who hurt us more than we love ourselves? So, we end up bearing all the pain that we feel because of them, and we end up staying stuck in a situation that is so painful just because we don’t want to let them go.

However, as days go by, we get used to the pain that it already makes us numb. We thought it’s normal because we got used to it. So, we just let things be the way they are although we know that there’s something wrong. 

The truth is, we won’t realize how poorly someone is treating us until we meet someone who treats us the way we should be treated. That’s when we realize that we shouldn’t allow people to treat us poorly just because we love them. 

We tend to hold on to the pain just because we already got used to it. Taking the bitter pill or that stinging needle of injection for us to be cured may hurt a little more, b

ut would you rather choose a lifetime kind of pain or the temporary kind of pain? Would you rather suffer for the rest of your life or take the risk of feeling the unfamiliar kind of pain that leads you to your healing?