Broken

Remember the first time you got your heart broken? It hurts like hell right? It’s funny how someone who meant the world to you and promised you the whole world is now

a stranger. So there you are, alone and afraid to fall in love because you don’t want to feel broken again. It’s funny how the person you once loved is now the reason for your hatred. 
It’s true that you can never force someone to love you regardless if you are still committed. Everything is borrowed and temporary. Once they fall out of love, it would be so hard to get them to love you back again. 

Having said that, though we don’t own their hearts, I believe that we are all entitled for respect and we are all entitled for an honest goodbye. 

But what if we’re left hanging not knowing that we are waiting for nothing because no one’s coming back?

How hard is it to be honest and tell you that they don’t love you anymore and they just want to be free? No matter how painful the words are, we all deserve an explanation. 

What adds an insult to your injury is knowing that they were the one who stabbed you and then they act like they are the one who’s bleeding.

So there you are, feeling used, dumped and insecure asking what is wrong with you. 

The truth is, nothing is wrong with you. You just chose the wrong person. You just chose not to follow your intuition when you first met them and found their boo-boos. You ignored those things because you were blinded by your infatuation. 

There’s nothing wrong with you. There is something wrong with the people you choose to be with. 

What I have learned in my 26 years of existence is that you don’t have to welcome all the people that you meet in your life. You have to choose wisely and follow your instincts. Avoid people who mess with your head. Avoid people who keep on doing the things that upset you. Avoid people who want you to prioritize them but refuses to prioritize you. 

You might have been left out, but I call it destiny when you grow from a place where someone left you in.

When You’re In Pain

As cliche’ as it sounds, pain is inevitable and it is always a part of life. There are different reasons why we feel the pain. The truth is, no one is exempted to feel it. Regardless if you are a good person or you haven’t hurt someone else means you won’t get hurt too. 

The question is, “Which kind of pain are you choosing?” Is it the pain of holding on or letting go? The pain of dwelling in the past or moving on? Is it the pain that gets you stuck in your old self or the pain that makes you grow and become a better version of yourself? Are you using the pain to make yourself bitter or are you taking it as a challenge to make yourself better?

I know it’s never easy. Especially if it the wound is fresh and you feel like you don’t want to get up from bed because the pain is excruciating and you have no one to tell it to. You are emotionally gashed and you just can’t focus on everything. But even if you feel that no one cares, the truth is, God cares. He knows what you are going through and He is always ready to listen to your frustrations and heartaches. We just often put God in a box and we try to tell Him how to do it but God uses an orthodox method. It doesn’t always makes sense to us but in the end, the result is always beautiful. God always answers prayer not just in a way that you expect it to be.

Are you open to the method that God is going to do to heal you? 

Pain is always a part of life but if God is with us, nothing can destroy us. God can turn every pain, every trial and every persecutions in your life into something beautiful that you can nev

er imagine just trust Him and let Him do it His way.

When You Think Life is Unfair

As of this writing, I am 25 years old and turning 26 on the 21st of April. I am single and a mother of a one year old child. Everytime I get to meet new friends and colleagues, they would always tell me in awe that life is so unfair because my body and face doesn’t show that I am already a mother. 

I always get surprised hearing the phrase, “Life is so unfair.” And hearing everyone tell me that I am so lucky to have maintained my body shape after the pregnancy because if they only knew what I had gone through, they wouldn’t want to be in my shoe. I strongly believe that we are all a product of our experiences. Sometimes, we think that other people are having it easy and we tend to get jealous at them thinking that maybe we could be happier if we were them. But the truth is, everyone is struggling and everyone is carrying a baggage just like you do. We just carry different baggages in life and it just depends on how you want to carry those baggages, how long do you want to carry them and when are you willing to put them down.

The truth is, everyone in the world gets hurt. Nobody has it easy and the world is not obliged to protect you from pain. But you have to move on and you have to choose to love and forgive. Because if you don’t, it’s more like choosing not to live anymore. No one is obliged to make you happy and no one is liable for your unhappiness either. Our happiness and unhappiness are the result of our choices. If you choose to stay in a toxic relationship which makes you unhappy, it is not your partner’s fault why you are unhappy. It is a result of your choice to stay on it. If you are happy inlove with someone, it is not the person who is making you happy. It is a result of your choice to keep the person in your life that is making you happy. Everything we feel and everything we have is a result of our choices. Life is never easy and we can never have a perfect life. Nobody has a perfect life, nobody is perfect and nobody is perfectly happy in all aspects of their life. Happiness is a choice even though you know that life isn’t perfect. Yes, it isn’t easy as ABC to forgive someone and put down the baggages. Yes, sorry can never erase everything you’ve gone through especially if you didn’t only get hurt. It is so hard to forgive when your life has been messed up and your dreams had crushed down because of what happened. But sometimes we have to realize that it might have happened because of what someone did, but you had the choice if you are going to let them do it to you. You have to let go of the baggages that are pulling you backwards. You have to forgive and continue to love. Continue to love someone else who deserves your love. Yet you still have a choice to let someone who did you wrong

 to stay in your life after all the mishaps and if they make your life miserable again, never put the blame on them. Because you have a choice not to let them in.

We have to realize that most of our pain are self-inflicted. The truth is, life is simple. It is our choices that are making it complicated.