I had a deep conversation with God in prayer this week. I admit, I came to a point when I doubt His power and lost my faith. I barely prayed and asked for His help because I thought I can do it on my own. I thought, He doesn’t hear me or answer my prayers anyway so why should I bother? I thought I can do it all on my own but I was wrong.
As they say, there is a hole in our heart that only God can fill. For when I was lost, even when my friends are there and there are a lot of people around me, I felt incomplete. As if, I am not living with a purpose. When I turned my back on Him, I thought I’ll be free. I can do the things I want to do without the people mandating me or feeling guilty because I am not serving Him.
However, this feeling didn’t last long. I felt weak and lost and my life seems like it’s going nowhere. What’s beautiful about God is that no matter how many times we turn our back on Him, His arms are always wide open. His love and mercy is so marvelous that I couldn’t fathom.
God answers prayer, maybe not in a way that we want Him to, but He always gives the best. Sometimes, we ask Him why and we even blame Him for not giving us what we desire but God has proven me many times that He always wants the best for me. And when it’s BEST, it is not mediocre or second best. He never wants us to settle for less even though there are countless times that we keep on praying and insisting on Him the things that we want for ourselves. Our God is so big but we always think small. Our God so big but we always want to settle for less.
Are you going through something now that makes you doubt God’s power? Are you on the verge of giving up? The best thing to do when you’re in doubt is to pray.. and keep on praying even when you think no one hears you, even when it seems like no one is around. There is God… When things seems wrong and you have nowhere to turn I have proven so many times that there is an invisible hand protecting me, providing me the things that I need. God is like the wind, we can’t see Him but we can always feel His presence.