Never Settle For Less Because God Gives The Best

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I had a deep conversation with God in prayer this week. I admit, I came to a point when I doubt His power and lost my faith. I barely prayed and asked for His help because I thought I can do it on my own. I thought, He doesn’t hear me or answer my prayers anyway so why should I bother? I thought I can do it all on my own but I was wrong.

As they say, there is a hole in our heart that only God can fill. For when I was lost, even when my friends are there and there are a lot of people around me, I felt incomplete. As if, I am not living with a purpose. When I turned my back on Him, I thought I’ll be free. I can do the things I want to do without the people mandating me or feeling guilty because I am not serving Him.

However, this feeling didn’t last long. I felt weak and lost and my life seems like it’s going nowhere. What’s beautiful about God is that no matter how many times we turn our back on Him, His arms are always wide open. His love and mercy is so marvelous that I couldn’t fathom.

God answers prayer, maybe not in a way that we want Him to, but He always gives the best. Sometimes, we ask Him why and we even blame Him for not giving us what we desire but God has proven me many times that He always wants the best for me. And when it’s BEST, it is not mediocre or second best. He never wants us to settle for less even though there are countless times that we keep on praying and insisting on Him the things that we want for ourselves. Our God is so big but we always think small. Our God so big but we always want to settle for less.

Are you going through something now that makes you doubt God’s power? Are you on the verge of giving up? The best thing to do when you’re in doubt is to pray.. and keep on praying even when you think no one hears you, even when it seems like no one is around. There is God… When things seems wrong and you have nowhere to turn I have proven so many times that there is an invisible hand protecting me, providing me the things that I need. God is like the wind, we can’t see Him but we can always feel His presence.

 

Keep Going

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I wish I could go to the previous,

When everything’s oblivious,

And the world isn’t vicious.

When you can always be frivolous.

 

I wish life has it easy,

Even though sometimes it gets messy.

In a world full of melancholy,

You still have to be jolly.

 

Cause when it rains, it pours.

And you just have to sashay and sway.

Because every raindrops can hide the teardrops.

And it clears the sleaze of things that have elapsed.

 

In life, you always have to be strong,

Even when everything’s going wrong.

Because life goes on.

And you always have to move on.

 

Cheer up little one,

You’re not the only one.

Everyone’s struggling and they just keep on fighting.

Keep on believing, keep striving and loving.

Cause you’re not designed for failing.

 

God’s Greatness

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Though I couldn’t fathom,

In His heart I have a home.

He is always with me,

Wherever I will be.

 

Although my heart is flimsy,

His love for me is sturdy.

Trials and pain that happened to me,

Are all part of His plan for me.

 

 

His love is so great,

That I always ruminate.

For when I turn my back on Him,

His love for me has never dimmed.

 

Though I am not worthy,

On the cross He died for me.

How great is Your love,

How great is Your mercy.

 

You loved me in my darkest,

And even in my weakest.

You loved me when I questioned Your competence,

And even Your existence.

 

How great is Your love,

How great are You God.

You are always faithful,

Even when I’m doubtful.

 

Thank You for forgiveness,

Thank You for Your kindness.

Thank You for Your faithfulness,

And for Your saving grace.

 

 

 

 

 

What if?

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Earlier, one of my colleague asked me. “Do you have regrets? Do you have What ifs?” and then I suddenly thought, what if I didn’t fall in love? I might have stayed focused in reaching for my dreams. Maybe, I have already reached my dreams in traveling the world. I would have been working on a cruise ship now together with my former classmates.

But what if all of those heartaches and pain didn’t happen to me? I would still be that little girl who’s afraid to stand up for herself. I would still be that little girl who would do the things that the people around me want me to do even though I don’t really like it.

What if I don’t have a child? What if I am still single and free? I would still be the person who’s lost and doesn’t know where I am heading to.

I did question everything. Why everything has to happen all at once, but then, I learned and understood that God won’t put me in a situation without a purpose. All those pain, trials and mistakes have to happen so that He can fulfill His plan for me.

I don’t have regrets. The only regret that I have is the pain that I have inflicted to my family when I didn’t turn out the way they expected me to be. The only regret that I will have in my life right now, is if I carry on reaching for my dreams alone and neglect the chance to watch my child learn and grow.

The only regret I’ll have is giving up just because of one painful past. The only regret that I’ll have is wasting so much of my time caring too much about the people’s perception and opinion about me.

If I have tasted the most delicious cake in the world and the people around me would ask me to stop eating it because it’s not delicious, I’d still eat it. I won’t care about what they say because I love what I’m doing.

They said, “The winner takes it all.” I believe it’s true. They take everything including disappointments and setbacks.

I know, it’s not that easy and I am still learning. I am getting there. I am learning each and every time I experience judgments.

Life is never easy. It’s not always rainbows and butterflies. And I believe that’s how God designed it to be. He made it that way so that we’ll be able to appreciate the eternal happiness that awaits us when we leave this earth.

Advocacy

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It all started when I was 4 years old. I am a Lola’s girl so as a child I always wanted to be with my grandmother. It was one cold evening when people were having a commotion. My grandmother checked to see what’s happening and right there we saw a fetus in the garbage.

I didn’t fully understand what happened but my grandmother told me what was it, and she told me, “Look, that’s a baby.” I was oblivious as to why it looks like that and why it’s in the garbage. I did not say a word but it did not leave my memory. I can still remember the exact same spot, I remember how it looked like and I can still remember how I felt. It left me wondering why it was there and where his/her parents are.

I am not trying to be a goody-goody kind of person. I do have a lot of flaws. I have made so many bad and irrational decisions in life but killing my own child even if it isn’t expected will never be in my element. Perhaps, that incident has led me to my advocacy. To know why these things are happening. It could be because they see them as an inconvenience rather than a blessing. Or they might have been raped. However, I don’t see the point of letting the child pay for what other people have sinned. I don’t see the point of letting an innocent suffer for it.

I know it’s never easy knowing that the people are going to judge you. It’s not easy to raise a child alone. We can have a lot of alibis. We are not yet ready, they will only be miserable or they are diagnosed with disability when they are still inside our womb so we would rather have them die early than suffer for the rest of their life.

I want to share a story about my favorite singer. His mother was advised by the doctor to have him aborted as early as possible because he will be born with disability and his mother refused. On his concert, before he sang, he told the audience about his story. He is a blind man, but you know what? he is the best singer in the world. He is Andrea Bocelli. What am I trying to say? Nobody knows what the future holds. We can never predict what’s going to happen, we can never judge someone because of their disability. Only God knows what our future holds. God has written our life story long before we were born. And these little innocent child, they were formed for a purpose. Nothing happens because of an accident even though they were conceived unexpectedly.

I have watched a documentary as to how some people perform an abortion and I can’t even imagine the pain of the little child inside the mother’s womb. They insert the suction inside and they forcibly suck the body of the baby. There was one ultrasound video where in the baby knows what is currently happening and he/she tries so hard to escape from the suction and his/her mouth turned wide open that looks like it’s screaming for help.

I know it’s never easy to face the responsibility but I do know very well that it’s a lot harder to live a life without a burden knowing that you have killed or abandoned a life that you are supposed to protect. We were once young and vulnerable and the reason as to why we were meant to grow up and become strong is because we were meant to protect the innocent children knowing that we were like them once.

No matter what we’ve been through, we might have been hurt as a child. We might have grown up without a parent or someone to protect us, can we break the chain? Can we do our best to love in-spite of the pain?

I know how hatred feels like. I know how hurt feels like.  And it’s up to me if I am going to use those experiences by doing the same thing to the people around me or if it’s going to make me become more compassionate to them.

The world is full of judgmental people anyway. Whatever reasons we have, can we not resort to killing the innocent? They need us to protect them and nurture them. They need our love and we need to focus on loving them more than focusing on the judgment of our society.

Perfectly Imperfect

Live-and-Learn

If you know me personally, you already know that I am a person who don’t normally open up to other people. I don’t often let my guard down.

Most people find me weird because they can barely read what’s running on my mind. I make weird decisions. I don’t want to settle with things and people just because it fits the society’s norm. Perhaps, people see me as someone who has been broken, and I can’t stop people from judging the cracks in my life. I am somehow thankful to God for He has beautifully made me whole again and it doesn’t matter if people can see it or not.

I am a very sensitive person, I’d like to think that with all those experiences, I have already grown a thick skin. But sometimes, I can’t keep myself from getting hurt. Words burn me when it comes from a loved one or a friend. It burns me when the few people I trust to get inside my circle turn out to be the people who would destroy me in the end.

I also overthink, I hate commotion even though I sometimes respond in a sassy way. I just don’t want to appear weak or someone who needs to be taken care of or someone who can’t stand up for herself. So I tend to end up masquerading how I truly feel. That is why my friends who know me so well often tease me that the game I know how to play the best is “Taguan ng Feelings” or hiding my feelings in English.

Earlier I asked God, what does He wants me to learn today? What is He teaching me?

And with all the overwhelming emotions that I have bottled up inside me, I found an answer and God’s message with my devotion today.

When God inhabits the imperfect and broken pieces in our lives, the healing hope of His power is often more visible to others. Yes, His repair work in our hearts often leaves the scars of cracks. But those lines from our learning are the etchings in our beings that should make His character more visible to others.

I am not perfect and will never be. My brokenness and scars will forever smudge in my life. But then I realized, life is too short and if Grim Reaper comes, am I prepared? Nobody can tell how long are we going to live or when are we going to die, therefore we have to live our lives as if it’s our last. Hence, death is something that we shouldn’t fear because that’s where we find the essence of life.

So today I pray that God would show His power as I share the treasure of His gospel in my broken, but beautiful life.

When You Have So Many Reasons To Hate


During my time off work, I have spent my days with my devotion and as I’ve heard the preaching earlier too about the power of Jesus and His love for us, it made me realize a lot of things. 

We have a lot of excuses in this world to feel negative. We have a lot of excuses when we don’t want to let go of those negative feelings and hold on to our anger and pain. Too many reasons like they deserve your anger because they have a very bad attitude, they are selfish, they have inflicted pain on you, they have a lot of boo-boo’s, etc. We hold on to our anger that everytime we see them or we think about them, we can’t stop ourselves from being angry. But everything we felt, Jesus felt it too. Betrayal, pain, suffering, shame, etc. What He felt was a lot harder than we have felt but He did not turn His back and thought about not dying on the cross for us. When I heard the message, I felt guilty and ashamed. Jesus has experienced all those sufferings and pains and He was willing to do it for me yet I live my life like I am living for myself and not for Him. Moreover, if I make my heart my own master, I may get lost because the heart is deceitful but the Lord Jesus Christ is always faithful. He is always there even at times that we feel so alone. 

Letting go of anger and resentment is more of being kind to yourself because you don’t want to be full of negative emotions that would disturb you greatly and would hinder you from being happy. Forgiveness and letting go is an act of being kind to yourself so that you can live peacefully. Never let someone affect you from being happy. A tiger doesn’t lose it’s sleep over the opinion of a sheep. It doesn’t matter what others would say, what matters is what Jesus will say. He had written your life story before you were born. He had promised to prosper you and give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11) Some may have meant evil for you but He meant everything that’s happening to you for your good. Trust His heart. Trust His purpose and trust His timing. Rejoice in the Lord always for everything that you are experiencing are part of His plan for your life. If Joseph wasn’t sold by his siblings, he won’t become the right hand of the king of Egypt. In the end, God’s purpose and plan will always prevail.