Selfish Heart

You said you’re in love,

But you are in doubt.

Because you are confused,

Because you can’t choose.

 

So she left without a word,

Because she can no longer see her worth.

She has set you free,

So that she can also live free.

 

But you just can’t let her be,

Because you don’t want to give her heart to somebody.

Even though staying keeps her hurting constanly,

In other’s arms you don’t want to see her happy.

 

But, true love is never selfish.

Love is always selfless.

So it seems like it wasn’t selfish love at all,

It was your heart that’s selfish afterall.

Never Settle For Less Because God Gives The Best

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I had a deep conversation with God in prayer this week. I admit, I came to a point when I doubt His power and lost my faith. I barely prayed and asked for His help because I thought I can do it on my own. I thought, He doesn’t hear me or answer my prayers anyway so why should I bother? I thought I can do it all on my own but I was wrong.

As they say, there is a hole in our heart that only God can fill. For when I was lost, even when my friends are there and there are a lot of people around me, I felt incomplete. As if, I am not living with a purpose. When I turned my back on Him, I thought I’ll be free. I can do the things I want to do without the people mandating me or feeling guilty because I am not serving Him.

However, this feeling didn’t last long. I felt weak and lost and my life seems like it’s going nowhere. What’s beautiful about God is that no matter how many times we turn our back on Him, His arms are always wide open. His love and mercy is so marvelous that I couldn’t fathom.

God answers prayer, maybe not in a way that we want Him to, but He always gives the best. Sometimes, we ask Him why and we even blame Him for not giving us what we desire but God has proven me many times that He always wants the best for me. And when it’s BEST, it is not mediocre or second best. He never wants us to settle for less even though there are countless times that we keep on praying and insisting on Him the things that we want for ourselves. Our God is so big but we always think small. Our God so big but we always want to settle for less.

Are you going through something now that makes you doubt God’s power? Are you on the verge of giving up? The best thing to do when you’re in doubt is to pray.. and keep on praying even when you think no one hears you, even when it seems like no one is around. There is God… When things seems wrong and you have nowhere to turn I have proven so many times that there is an invisible hand protecting me, providing me the things that I need. God is like the wind, we can’t see Him but we can always feel His presence.

 

Keep Going

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I wish I could go to the previous,

When everything’s oblivious,

And the world isn’t vicious.

When you can always be frivolous.

 

I wish life has it easy,

Even though sometimes it gets messy.

In a world full of melancholy,

You still have to be jolly.

 

Cause when it rains, it pours.

And you just have to sashay and sway.

Because every raindrops can hide the teardrops.

And it clears the sleaze of things that have elapsed.

 

In life, you always have to be strong,

Even when everything’s going wrong.

Because life goes on.

And you always have to move on.

 

Cheer up little one,

You’re not the only one.

Everyone’s struggling and they just keep on fighting.

Keep on believing, keep striving and loving.

Cause you’re not designed for failing.

 

Love Isn’t Enough For You To Stay

Sometimes you just can’t take it anymore,

And all you want to do is turn away.

Sometimes, people will ask you to stay, 

Even when they’re the one who pushed you to go away.

One day, you just wake up,

And realize you’ve had enough,

Cause love isn’t always enough,

For you to overlook the gaffe.

Cause everything’s changing,
And the world keeps on turning.

And it’s sad to realize that things change in just a glimpse,

And people change without a hitch.

 Sometimes love fades, but the memories will stay.

And sometimes, people have to part their ways,

And even though their love still stays,

The pain will always be there if you won’t go away,

Cause sometimes, love isn’t enough for you to stay.

 

 

 

 

God’s Greatness

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Though I couldn’t fathom,

In His heart I have a home.

He is always with me,

Wherever I will be.

 

Although my heart is flimsy,

His love for me is sturdy.

Trials and pain that happened to me,

Are all part of His plan for me.

 

 

His love is so great,

That I always ruminate.

For when I turn my back on Him,

His love for me has never dimmed.

 

Though I am not worthy,

On the cross He died for me.

How great is Your love,

How great is Your mercy.

 

You loved me in my darkest,

And even in my weakest.

You loved me when I questioned Your competence,

And even Your existence.

 

How great is Your love,

How great are You God.

You are always faithful,

Even when I’m doubtful.

 

Thank You for forgiveness,

Thank You for Your kindness.

Thank You for Your faithfulness,

And for Your saving grace.

 

 

 

 

 

If You Have One More Day

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If you have one more day to live,

I will have more time to give.

If you have one more day to smile,

I will make everything worth while.

 

If you have one more day on earth,

I’ll make sure that you’re always heard.

If you have one more day to breathe,

I will always show a love that’s great.

 

If you have one more day to wish,

I will grant them all with a kiss.

If you have one more day to prick up ears,

I will tell you how much I want you here.

 

 

If you have one more day to live,

I will show all the love that I can give.

These are the things that I should say…

If you have one more day.

 

 

 

Love And Happiness

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I often wonder how people fall in love easily. I don’t know if I would feel better or I’ll get envy knowing that I don’t do the same.

I used to be in love. They said, love will make you happy. It will inspire you and it will make you want to wake up everyday because the reality is better than your dream. Love makes your face look happy and your eyes alive.

But I don’t know if it was the right kind of love that I felt. Cause I felt the opposite. I was crying, I was sad, I felt insecure and pressured. It was some kind of emotional pain that I held on for too long thinking that maybe, it was just a phase. Some people believe that love is being willing to go through hell with the person. But, is that really the right kind of love? If you are with the right person, will there be a chance for the two of you be in a hellish situation or a hellish kind of feeling?

I don’t think so. Being with the right person should make your loads feel lighter when you are with them. Being with the right person should make you feel a little bit better when you are weak. Both of you may experience some predicaments, but having them by your side makes you feel strong.

I don’t know. I don’t have the answer to the question as to why I don’t fall in love easily. Maybe I’m afraid, or maybe I lost hope.

All I know is that love will come to you at the right time. You don’t need to force it. You don’t need to pretend that you have it just to cover up the pain of the past because it will just get worse. Love and happiness is like intelligence. You don’t need to tell everyone that you have it because if you do, it will automatically show.