Single and Happy

We live in a world where in being alone seems like a curse. People would think that you are lonely just because you don’t have a  romantic partner. We live in a world where in it seems like your happiness depends on the validation of the people around you. A world where people think you are lonely and pitiful just because you’re single. 
Sometimes I think that maybe I am eccentric or crazy or weird (Well, I really am). I’ve been in love and have been in a relationship. And to compare, I can say that being in a relationship is far worse than being single. I am not saying that everyone who are in a relationship are miserable. And not everyone who are single are lonely either. I believe, it is always a case to case basis. 
I just can’t fathom why people associate the word lonely with single people. I really don’t understand. Because when we were young, our child instinct would always give us an idea as to how we could be happy and enjoy life with the little things around us. We don’t think about romance or having a significant other so that we can be happy. Because as a child, our natural state is being happy. 
When we wake up in the morning, we are excited to pile up and play. We enjoy the simplicity of life. But as we grow old, the society slowly convinces us that happiness comes from other people. That we aren’t worthy if the person we love doesn’t loves us back. The society convinces us that we can’t be alone because we’ll become lonely if we do. 
Do you remember the last time when you are happy and that happiness didn’t come from other person? You are happy just because you do and there is no reason behind it. You are happy just because you choose to be happy whether you are loved by the people around you or not. When was the last time when you are happy just because it comes naturally? Just because you know that Jesus loves you and your life is a gift from Him. Just because you are thankful. Just because you know that everyday is another chance to be a blessing and be blessed by everyone around you.

When You’re Forcing Love to Stay Alive, It isn’t Love Anymore.

Sometimes love is ugly, challenging, frustrating, painful – even in the happiest and strongest of relationships. Love takes work. It takes effort. Love is not always light and pretty. It takes the ability to admit when you’re wrong. It takes dedication, it takes loyalty.

But there is a difference between fighting for something that you know is too good to let go of, and clinging on to something that has already died.

Often, deep down, we already know when it’s not love anymore. What it is is familiarity, routine, insurance. It’s something we’ve gotten used to. It’s a security blanket. It’s the guarantee that we aren’t alone. Sometimes the death of love is easier to sense, if we’re with someone who directly makes us incredibly unhappy. And sometimes it’s harder to admit to ourselves, because we’re with someone whom we care about deeply, even if we’re no longer in love with them. But no matter the specific circumstances, we try to convince ourselves that the love is still there, because we’re not ready for the alternative.

And so we grasp onto it, no matter how much our gut resists, because we’d rather cling to something that is dead than willingly step into a world where we are hurt and alone.

It’s not a fault really, not a flaw. Just human nature. It is in our bones to want to be with other people. To feel instantly comforted from the touch or the assurance of another human being. To feel actual, physical pain when we stretch out in bed and are once again reminded that there is no longer a warm body in the place next to us.

But we must remember that there is a difference between forcing love and fighting for it. Forcing love – forcing yourself to feel something – is not love at all. It’s a manufactured emotion your body has created as a coping mechanism, a survival instinct. Forcing love means it’s already dead. And when you spend all your time forcing yourself to love someone, you miss the opportunity to fight for the person who really sets your soul on fire. The choice isn’t easy, but at least it’s yours.

Selfish Heart

You said you’re in love,

But you are in doubt.

Because you are confused,

Because you can’t choose.


So she left without a word,

Because she can no longer see her worth.

She has set you free,

So that she can also live free.


But you just can’t let her be,

Because you don’t want to give her heart to somebody.

Even though staying keeps her hurting constanly,

In other’s arms you don’t want to see her happy.


But, true love is never selfish.

Love is always selfless.

So it seems like it wasn’t selfish love at all,

It was your heart that’s selfish afterall.

Never Settle For Less Because God Gives The Best

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I had a deep conversation with God in prayer this week. I admit, I came to a point when I doubt His power and lost my faith. I barely prayed and asked for His help because I thought I can do it on my own. I thought, He doesn’t hear me or answer my prayers anyway so why should I bother? I thought I can do it all on my own but I was wrong.

As they say, there is a hole in our heart that only God can fill. For when I was lost, even when my friends are there and there are a lot of people around me, I felt incomplete. As if, I am not living with a purpose. When I turned my back on Him, I thought I’ll be free. I can do the things I want to do without the people mandating me or feeling guilty because I am not serving Him.

However, this feeling didn’t last long. I felt weak and lost and my life seems like it’s going nowhere. What’s beautiful about God is that no matter how many times we turn our back on Him, His arms are always wide open. His love and mercy is so marvelous that I couldn’t fathom.

God answers prayer, maybe not in a way that we want Him to, but He always gives the best. Sometimes, we ask Him why and we even blame Him for not giving us what we desire but God has proven me many times that He always wants the best for me. And when it’s BEST, it is not mediocre or second best. He never wants us to settle for less even though there are countless times that we keep on praying and insisting on Him the things that we want for ourselves. Our God is so big but we always think small. Our God so big but we always want to settle for less.

Are you going through something now that makes you doubt God’s power? Are you on the verge of giving up? The best thing to do when you’re in doubt is to pray.. and keep on praying even when you think no one hears you, even when it seems like no one is around. There is God… When things seems wrong and you have nowhere to turn I have proven so many times that there is an invisible hand protecting me, providing me the things that I need. God is like the wind, we can’t see Him but we can always feel His presence.


Keep Going

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I wish I could go to the previous,

When everything’s oblivious,

And the world isn’t vicious.

When you can always be frivolous.


I wish life has it easy,

Even though sometimes it gets messy.

In a world full of melancholy,

You still have to be jolly.


Cause when it rains, it pours.

And you just have to sashay and sway.

Because every raindrops can hide the teardrops.

And it clears the sleaze of things that have elapsed.


In life, you always have to be strong,

Even when everything’s going wrong.

Because life goes on.

And you always have to move on.


Cheer up little one,

You’re not the only one.

Everyone’s struggling and they just keep on fighting.

Keep on believing, keep striving and loving.

Cause you’re not designed for failing.


Love Isn’t Enough For You To Stay

Sometimes you just can’t take it anymore,

And all you want to do is turn away.

Sometimes, people will ask you to stay, 

Even when they’re the one who pushed you to go away.

One day, you just wake up,

And realize you’ve had enough,

Cause love isn’t always enough,

For you to overlook the gaffe.

Cause everything’s changing,
And the world keeps on turning.

And it’s sad to realize that things change in just a glimpse,

And people change without a hitch.

 Sometimes love fades, but the memories will stay.

And sometimes, people have to part their ways,

And even though their love still stays,

The pain will always be there if you won’t go away,

Cause sometimes, love isn’t enough for you to stay.





God’s Greatness


Though I couldn’t fathom,

In His heart I have a home.

He is always with me,

Wherever I will be.


Although my heart is flimsy,

His love for me is sturdy.

Trials and pain that happened to me,

Are all part of His plan for me.



His love is so great,

That I always ruminate.

For when I turn my back on Him,

His love for me has never dimmed.


Though I am not worthy,

On the cross He died for me.

How great is Your love,

How great is Your mercy.


You loved me in my darkest,

And even in my weakest.

You loved me when I questioned Your competence,

And even Your existence.


How great is Your love,

How great are You God.

You are always faithful,

Even when I’m doubtful.


Thank You for forgiveness,

Thank You for Your kindness.

Thank You for Your faithfulness,

And for Your saving grace.